XXiixx_My DesiRe_xxiiXX

i despise you...

2007-08-17T00:43:00.000-07:00

i heard enough... and i dont want to hear more... im so disappointed i thought this matter is impossible for us.. because were different, but i've heard enough... i hate you... i wont tell you that i've already found out about our fuckin secret... Damn you... your not thinking of the possible consequences!~

damn you!.... and to think that you keep on telling me to do this and that while you friggin ass hole do THAT STUFF damn you!!!! >_<... im so friggin pissed i hate you...

you know.. all this time... i brag us to my friends.. i keep on telling them how cool you were and now this!!!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

if killing isn't a sin... T______T for doing that to her...i hate you!! actually i dont care whether you leave or not or fuck who knows what but to hurt her!? damn you asshole!!!!

wait till i finish school

y0u donjt have to worry anymore... i will slap my diploma to your face... i'll give all my best... sacrifice what i have to to prove that i can replace you... who needs a freak like you!!!!!!!

I HATE YOU... keep that in mind... i cant even call you that nimore... i hate you.. T_T

c++

2007-08-15T19:51:00.000-07:00

this is the subject that i really like but is really giving me a hard time.. one of the subjects in my college days taht made me cry...

im currently working on 6 problems

and i've barely finished one on my own.. T_T

i suck i feel bad about myself... comparing myself to others who can already do those...some passed the subject withouht getting help... i feel bad.. i just feel bad... self pity wont help me i know...i dont want to ask help enimore too.. coz i just feel more... ( whatever ) about myself... :'( ( brb for a minutes i just want to cry my eyes out i feel weak because of this darn fever... i gave in! >___< im mad... im furious.. im not in the mood )

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btw. this will be my last post for this blog.. i already bought my new journal...

yey... i can write wholeheartedly now! (^_^)x

rain pours gently...

2007-08-15T01:41:00.000-07:00

"When pain strikes the heart love fades.. no matter how great it is"

( wala lang yan )

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True Love waiTs..

- no matter how long it takes for you to stand under the freezing rain you will stand still endure the pain of the coldness pricking your skin, for that someone

- no matter what reason might there be, you will always be there waiting...

- when you love someone.. forever is just a minute...

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i woke up sometime around 5:30 am, it was freezing and it was raining, got myself ready for school and left early, when i reached R.Papa Station the heavy rain poured, it was cold, but its ok since i brought my jacket, i got to the jeep i rode the washington keep i was scared because of the thunder >_<... when i was about to go and transfer to another jeep geeno lend me his umbrella... and even paid for my fair ( thanks kuya )... still we got wet... when i entered the scho0L YIKKEEESS!!! brrrrrr... minutes after my long stay there... classes were immediately suspended... ate grace texted me and told me that we'll have a meeting in her place.. so i told hunny that im going to meet them at the central terminal station.. unfortunately, we got stucked at Makati because of the flood.. T_T, we to0k a detour going mRt...then LrT then... tayuman then to ate grace;s house.. we stayed until around 5 pm, had an executive meeting and went to my place to have dinner i introduced them to my family...

after dinner we went upstairs to have a small talk i could say that... i opened a topic that i shouldn;t have :'(.. i felt bad...

..what is to love someone

2007-08-12T03:43:00.000-07:00

you need to think but you need to feel

balance your heart and your mind,,,

*lol*

to0 complicated?

that;s why i prefer not to think about it hahahaha

MincO DoMinGo

2007-08-10T04:27:00.000-07:00

5 months ago.. my life was devastated.. yeah.. down in the lumps.. whatever you call it...in short... i considered myself as the most pathetic loser in the world... every night i lock myself in my ro0m crying.. to the point that i almost killed myself ( thank you KC ), one night out of depression i decided to log on my YM and see if i could do something to make myself busy and forget my low problem...i logged onto my YM and changed my status.."i am such a loser" minutes later there was this guy ( my crush ) were not really that close coz i find him very unapproachable, very whatever.. you know the typical boy next do0r type.. so i dont really give him a bother since that;'s what i think and i thought that if i opened myself up to him he'll probably think that i am such a loser...he pm'd me and ask if imdoin ok and if i have already eaten dinner i just replied a cold yes and turned into the conference ro0m... i was like a tornado.. i screamed whatever... everyone there comforts me... and it made me feel abit better.. days passed i still have the same status and the guy kept on opming me askin how i was doin.. so i thought maybe i could talk to him for a while so there... i opened up but before i said anything he told me " you are not a loser and you will never be " i was deeply touch by those words.. it lightened me up..he made me smile for the first time...in my two weeks of being dead...after that night we kept on chatting day to midnyt...he's name was Midnyt and i am chie ... that's the only thing i knew about him until i asked for his friendster.. when he gave it to me... WOAH so its been almost a year since we met..that was last september 27 2006, after we both joined the ownage forums.. after that we got to know each other through YM, chat chat chat using the cam he can see how i look like my attitude... my boyish and unglamorous ways... my very interesting burping skills and etc etc... in short he saw how unglamorous chie could be.. but still he keeps on PMing me...admiring how i Look hahaha complimenting me etc etc.. i was touched but in my mind... a guy like him wont like a girl like me.. :'( its so sad coz im falling for him... he's different...no words can describe what he is.. what he's got... march 29 2007... we confessed to each other.. i admitted that i got this huge crush on him AND SO IS HE... i was like :">... speechlessafter that moment we just laughed but deep inside me...it felt different... its like my chest is i dunno.. i cant describe but there is this feeling in me.. something that surpasses happyness ( hehe )..we just continue to chat but this time it felt different.. its like i dont want to chat with anyone but only HIM... and this time i must admit.. i LOVE him...i already fell...the next day he asked.. can i keep you...but i said.. can you give me more time to think about it... he said ok.. 1st problemm something happened.. something that scared me... i hate issues... but i didn;t let that fear conquer me.. he told me that' he's gnna share my fear...that day 31st of March year 2o07... i told him that i Love him and i told him this"dont worry im yours na"those words brought us to a place higher than bliss that day we became a couple... :3 it was still vaca im so excited to see him but we still need to wait for weeks for us to be able to see each other, because he's going to davao for a vaca.. he switched his simcard to sun so we can talk in phone.. also since i got the phone pin i call him every night...i cant wait for the start of the 4th term...i could be with him.. not through text or chat or phone but beside him.. beside the guy that i loved the most...16th day of april year 2o07 i went to scho0l early.. i didn;t care about the orientation REALLY!.. i was so excited to go.. i got to LRT i was supposed to surprise him but things turned the other way there's this guy in Line 1 platform holding a paper with " i LOVE YOU CHESCA" in it :"> he hugged me... there was this spark in me... its love :3... its really fun we enjoyed each others company.. we celebrated monthsaries in the simplest way but i assure you.. everything left a very memorable moment... but for me the 2nd was the best.. he made a surprise that really got meh... the "breakfast in bed"...it made me feel that gosh am i this special?~... midnyt... the 1st guy that i ever introduced to my family as my most beloved...weeks passed problems came trials as what people call them it made me cry it made him cry those trials came to tear us apart but instead of being beaten we fought them.. we proved them that no matter what problem came we can pass them because we are together our hearts beat as one and we love each other... things may not be perfect...but our love our bond is just to0 strong that NOT EVEN perfect is the word to describe that bond...oh yeah i have;t introduced him to you the guy that i was talking about.. nga pala si MINCO DOMINGO... my one and only...

++ wait for part 2 ++ ( how we overcome problems )

The mAdnEsS of a WomAn

2007-08-08T03:45:00.000-07:00

Love...

it hurts a lot when its not running smoothly

but in bliss when your enjoying it...

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2 nights ago.. i was in bLiss.. the weather is really not go0d its raining heavily and im soaking wet... its really chilly in the train but thinking of him makes me feel his warmth wrapping this coldness i feel..., we ran through the rain going to scho0L shared the same umbrella... it was a really nice feeling.. on our way home.. its raining again were both wet and coLd but his arms wrapping me made me feel secure and comfortable... he carried me on his back so i dont have to walk in the floody streets of taft...first time someone ACTUALLY did that to me and im glad it was him...

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the next day i co0ked something for lunch although it didn;t turn out quite well because of the meat >_< well its ok..that day is really memorable though

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classes were suspended...

weather is cold and so is my feeling.. not again... /...

i hate it when im like this...

rain... causing me so much...oh well..

....i just dont know...

2007-08-04T02:06:00.000-07:00

why is it that some thigns are just so complicated...

*i think i nid a journal..not ones that i can post online coz.. i just realized... some things are just to0 personal to be posted at such websites...*

...Love... ( i dedicate this to my friends ) BASAHIN NYU TO!

2007-07-28T17:41:00.000-07:00

people fall in Love and fall IN love..

but what is really falling into it and falling INTO it...

when people falls in love everything doesn;t matter anymore as long as their feelings are extrememely strong everything is ok... everything is just ok... they get hurt at times but still ITS OK... they get numb from the feeling of hurt.. but once they get tired of just saying ok.. they just black out and give up.. feeling all depressed in a sudden

a complete opposite of fallig IN love

falling IN love is a long process compare to falling in LOVE... when people falls IN love... they never get tired... the fall not because everything is perfect but for the reason that everything is just so not right that they wanted to the the reason why everything will still turn out to be ok..

those are the couples who goes the yin yang/.. complete opposites but still feel so truly madly deeply inlove with each other...and most of all

when people falls IN love... they just cant type enimore (*i miss you hunny*)

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REGRETS

regrets is the most uncomfortable feeling... because it always comes at last...

people regret doing stuff after the realized that what they did is just plain crap.. or they did something w/o thinking...

"you will only realize a persons REAL worth when they;re gone"

this is for those who always feel.. "sawa"

for someone whose always there beside them

its true that they cant help but to feel that way but once they let go.. and then realize that they dont want to lose such person.. its already million years TO)O)O)OO)O)o0o0o late for them...

so guys... dont just act w/o thinking

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how much do you love your partner,,,

thats it...

think about this line HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE YOUR PARTNER...

you think he/she is happy with you

are you certain that your the reason why he/she smiles...

my emotions to music...

2007-07-23T15:13:00.000-07:00

im so inspired ayt now.. by vanessa carlton's talent...

ok.. am a fan...

playing the piano has been my passion ever since... but bitternesscame *lol* eniwei that doesn;t eman that im giving up on it... i'll do my very best.. to fulfill a dream... a dream of playing a song for someone i loved the most.. someone that goes by the name of minco domingo jr..

well.. i had a melody done... its not yet complete since i am having a hard time with the bass... the music.. is inspiring...it has a soft melody and i had a go0d combination of notes...

i'll be working on my lyrics.. cramer;s!

im no poet..

im no go0d at poems..

im no go0d at rhymes...

but it doesn;t matter... putting my heart to my song.... THAT:"S IT!!!

>_<

weee im so excited....

"ok lang"

2007-07-23T01:40:00.000-07:00

im just releasing my emotions.. mixed emotions.. my stress.. everything.....

i woke uo around 6 am.. i took a bath coz mom told me so and she wants me to move fast coz she wants me to drop her off at her office ( ok fine ) we left the house around 7am..its pretty early for me since my class will start at 9 am.. we arrived at her office around 8 am i was walking at the busy streets of Makati ( sumwhere in bel-air village ) i was thinking if i should eat breakfast first coz i haven;t eaten anything yet.. but i remembered that i have to save money so i decided to just buy "taho" ( a "not-so-solid" tofu with melted sugar and sago )... i arrived at school pretty early joie was there with omi and toby.. i sat beside them and waited for the bell... 9 am we went to the canteen i bought 1 doughnut and tea and went to the ro0m.. after our hellish seatwork.. ok.. "fast forward" i was soo0o0o0 excited to go to intra ma'am daluz isn't aorund which means i can go to intra early! and see my hunny since i haven;t seen him yet and i've been missin him so bad...

i went there with journey i didn;t care even if its really!!!! hot AS IN!

unfortunately hun is doin something with adobe its really cute its about streetball..i felt sleepy... and remembered that i haven;t eaten anything yet.. i was about to ask him when i remembered that he has classes.. so maybe i could wait.. i dont want to eat alone.. >__<

"di ko na nga xa nakabonding maxado sana man lang kahit sa pagkain"

but things turned out the other way round.. he got mad at me coz i kept on complaining that im hungry etc etc... deep inside im hurt.. i couldn;t tell him the reason why i am waiting coz when i looked into his eyes I COULD TELL he's pissed...

sorry chie apology not accepted...( i dunno ganun kc dating skin )

i dont want to cry... i just dont want to cry anymore... but tears kept on falling.. every moment that passes by knowing that minco is mad at me crushes me... then a tought came...

so many of them... i felt dizzy i couldn;t even barely remember a thought...

we went home the aura is as cold as ice..

i said sorry but i received a cold "wag mo na isipin un"

i thought we'll be fixing things up at the platform but i was wrong..

he told me to go home..

i stopped at carriedo coz its embarassing again riding the train crying.. >_<

i texted my mom..

she;'s home already so again ride the train >__< damn a gurls asked if im ok.. i said yes..

get off at tayuman... cried and cried... mom told me to go home and not wait anymore...

so i did.. i went to the last car and stood at the last door...

i was texting ate grace she was advising me... i felt cold inside...

im scared..

im scared....

just scared....

and now im crying

*sorry javi* i couldn;'t type anymore...

naiiyak ako hahahaha

vacation with hunny

2007-07-02T18:09:00.000-07:00

ok where do i start?!... im to0 excited to type hahaha.. i dont even know how to start this post...what intwoduction should i type or whatever... anyways... let's just say this is a part since i am typing what pops out,,,

uki duki.. saturday.. June 3o 2o07///

i woke up early and spend sometime in the net since it'll be my last as of that moment/.// i got my stuff ready for the trip... the trip: induction ( L.E.A.D. ) and lets say.. my 3 days 2 mights moment with my hunny ( MincO G. Domingo Jr. ). i left the house around 1:30... met the peepz at the pav I bought a magic dust lollipop hehehe it was fun trippin over it hehehe.,..greens tuff.. we left MAPUA round 4:30 pm.. trip mode:: it was fun having kuya torri and ham with us in the jeep hahaha...

everyone is just laughing im so excited sitting beside my hunny the whole afternoon... after the long drive we arrived at kuya adrian's house @ pagsanjan Laguna... we spent the night there... me, kuya lance, kuya jayford and kuya darwin co0ked dinner for everyone oh yes! with ate jen.. hehehe...

its wasn't easy since.. BLACKOUT MODE>....

that night we grouped ourselves into 3 unfortunately imnotwith hunny.. so i cant sleep with him..:(

*peep*,lovelife,bitterness... all we did is to chat chat chat then we noticed its already morning hahaha.. i went outside to check on hunny, me kuya adrian, ate dana ad hun went outside...chitchat... until 4 am... then... we went back to wake others up... we got ready...

i got kuya chip,ate dana, ate kc, ate grace, kuya jarred,kuya ketchup, kuya lance at our group hehehe we went to the camp As early as possible and we got there first followed by minzky's group... i had my stuff ready... then we had our orientation then… we started the team building… our 5 low events was pretty hard BUT real fun… I had an accident on our 3^rd.. I hit my neck at the rope thingy and it hurt so bad,,, T_T but im go0d hahahha…

the most fun part there is our last challenge the trust fall… ^_^ its really cute and fun!!

The last challenge is for everyone… gutta climb a wall.. and I weas the first to climb XD.. its really scary.. >_< but its really fun…kuya torri got spooned, everyone is really worried… after the wall thingy.. my group blindfolded ourselves and we got a partner,,,mine was kuya louie a.k.a RYAN AGONCILLO PASCUAL hjajajajaj…. We finished first I got myself hell dirty out there but it was fun… hahahahahahaha… cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute cute.~~

Following directions hahaha… ok…after the team building we went back and to0k a rest me and minzky had small fight… I just slept…I don’t want to start a fight so I just kept quiet… we had our lunch and we talked about what happened I apologized and were go0d na…

After that.. we played chess… MINZKY lost nyahahahaha MATE!!! After that I massaged him and we to0k a bath… then chat chat chat for a while…dinner time ^___________________^

Yum yum yum… the rest…. Then INDUCTION!!! >_< I’ll have a video posted here about what happened…it was scary but fun.. I learned a lot especially the break up time… I cried… I had a big scar on my face.. after that we sat round the bon fire… we lit our candles had a speech… I thanked the lead family for what they’ve done to me// ^__________^…

After the induction I change clothes… INUMAN SESSIONS with kuya ham, torri, eb, lance, jayford, jen, kuya jarred and I forgot cnu pa…

Then I slept beside minzky… ^______________________________________________^… I woke up around 7 am…everyone is still asleep so natulog pako…9 am… I woke minzky up he’s like an alarm clock coz everyone woked up at the same time hahahaha… “ang ingay daw kasi”.. kuya jarred is like an AM radio.. XD>. I spilled minzky’s milo… i got MATE…. Kuya jarred is really go0d in chess XD.. gwatttuwqdwnfkelwnfw…

“prepares for next round”

Round 11 we left.. Swimming na~~~

Up until 5 then again we to0k a bath together… ^______________________________^

The swimming was also fun hahaha the pool scandal XD.. scary………..

Hahahahaha… it was fun I saw a real mountain!!!!!

Ok… we went home.. well I spend the trip home sleeping on minzky’s lap///

XD/// when we got home…

I checked up on my grades,,,,

nyahahahahahahha

its just me..

2007-06-28T06:14:00.000-07:00

scho0L is over.. bye bye freshmen days... hello im now in 2nd yr college.. how time flies...

seems like yesterday i just graduated from highscho0L.. memories are coming back.. but when i see HS students now i cant help but to thik of them as JUST KIDS...

its like i've never been in their stage..

college is not easy.. cramming is pain in my butt, waking up late sleeping late gatting late LATE is my word...

its funny.. coz even though days are getting tougher and tougher.. i can still manage to stand and face every single day.. look up and say WHEW~!! KAIA TO!.. soon i'll be seeing my grades.. will i pass? or not.. whatever happens... go0dluck>_<

seriosuly i wanted to be a scholar.. i want to be someone that people around me will be proud of.. but based on my attituted now.. i doubt it will happen XD

like wat minzky said im just being to0o0oo pessimistic.. :'(

haayy,,,

oh well... ganbatte?

...lost in space//

2007-06-23T13:36:00.000-07:00

watashi wa hountou ni baka...

ne... gomene.. hountou ni gomenasai..

wakaranai you... zen zen wakaranai...

kowai desu... T____________T

motto soba ni iru.. anata ni ai tai no... T___________T

aishiteru....

.........†chie†............

The viDeo/SLide/ wHateVer..

2007-06-14T01:03:00.000-07:00

i was browsing the Mapua ownage forums...

i saw this thread it caught my attention..

it is about a guy who tells the story about the gurl he "USED" to love..

about the irony of their relationship.. it was sad...

i red the whole thread.. at first i felt nothing since im certain that THAT issue is like a gazillion years ago.. but something caught me..

it was a video.. a slide? whatever it is... i checked it out and i regret what i did..

i felt this weird pain in my chest when i saw how she smiled.. and that line strucked me

"i was astouned by her simplicity"... i cant help but to compare her to me...

her smile is unique.. totally different from mine.. its pure and gentle...

( why the heck am i complimenting her!? )...

my smile reflects what i feel.. its not as pure as hers since whenever i smile people could easily tell.. whether that smile is of Joy, or of hiding pain...

im not as simple as her.. i am an expressive person.. i love expressing myself through wearing what I WANT to wear, by, doing what I WANT to do... im to0 vain.. yes..i love attention.. and i hate that part of me...

:'( what am i saying now...

is this what people call jealousy? >__< i've never experience this before but it hurts me...

i know i shouldn;t be jealous coz i have him with me ...

but still i cant help but to get scared that a day would come he'll wake up and suddenly falls out... >_< i dont want to think about it...

oww... i miss him so much.,. im getting all paranoid.. *RELAX* i wanna see him..

on The 13tH day of June

2007-06-13T05:18:00.000-07:00

happiness..

yep that is what i am feeling right now.. 2 days ago.. i was feeling all wuppy over hunny.. im so desperate to see him, to hug him, to kiss him, i missed his lips, his scent, his arms everythign about him...i just cant help but to think of him every second that passes in my funny life...

minco domingo jr. the man that franchesca fajardo y camaso loved the most..

spending time with each other often isn;t that easy you know..,

finals is fast approaching and compare to other scho0Ls.. well. we got no vaca! >_<..

were both tired consuming all our braincells answering damn calculus problems and his co0L but really complicated circuits.. but i know.. he's more tired than i am..

that is why i am here.. supporting him.. sharing my strength.. my everything.. to make him feel better... i want him to feel that even though he sometimes fell n the ground soimeone is there to help him get up.. if he looses his way someone is there to guide him,..

that is me.. i will never leave him.. i love you hunny. ^____^

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lately we saw Mr. Bean movie hehe.. it was fun watching movies with someone you love especially when you like repeat the movie thrice :p

calculus class... i doubt that i will pass...

my 3rd quiz was hell.. i only got 40/100

>_<

someone gave me a letter... >_<

oh well... not a biggy deal.. *yawn* chie ish already sleepy.. oyasumi..

trying something new

2007-05-19T16:36:00.000-07:00

last night my friends are making fun of me because of my boyish attitude and my weird 10 sec dream of beiing a professional barker... jeff told me about his bandmate a model of penshoppe and bench... i was really amazed since i really wanted to be a model... he told me that my skinny figure is perfect but the height matters...

i will try that VTR thingy on july after iu had my hair done ( i wish its long enough at that time ), i will try taking cherifer and sleep early... i'll reach 5'8 in no time i swear~

im really nervous and excited at the same time i wanna grab this opportunity to become a model...i wanna try something new i wanna be someone...so that my famly and friends and minzky will be proud of me ^_______^

Oh Life

2006-01-15T01:21:00.000-08:00

January 15 2oo6

A summary

( summary of what happened since yesterday )

i woke up around 6 Am yesterday January 14.. i Logged on and postie mode at pinoycosplay forums.. then around 8 i took a bath.. then 9 went to the rendezvous,.. ok.. i met gibs at monumento station first.. well.. at Mcdo ( rob ermita ) ate polence, manero and kuya fart were there waiting for us then around 10:30 others came.. oh well.. first stop is at cargin's the dress maker soo cool! then divisoria.. Gibbs's exhibition was the best!! rawr! oh well.. i bought my mini katana its so cute! i got it for 350 ^^.. eniwei..

after my adventure at divi.. i went straight to mega to meet my darling yui.. he looks so kawaii in his outfit.. and also i met new friends..kuya kei, ate madi and kuya shin! they're all soo cool.. and nice ^^.. i accepted there offer.. me doing bridget...so i started practicing AA again.. ^^ its fun playing yoyo i missed my yoyo days... ohh... flipspin...

anyway today january 15 im banned from using my pc hahah.. takas mode to oh well.. dekinut and xtian came here for a visit.. pix and yuri session nyahahaha

the day was fun..

errr. im too lazy to type oh well

Sunflower girL

2006-01-11T08:16:00.000-08:00

January 11 2oo6

Sunflower gurl

( happy birthday master Sonar Benjamin Sandiko )

ok... i was late for school hehehe... i led the flag ceremony in the middle of the quadrangle!? the opening prayer, the nationaL anthem and etc.. yuck.. ok na sana yung prayers but my goodness!.. CHIE sings the national anthem ewww...., errr... school isn;t really that exciting anymore...well..we were dimissed sumtym around 4 so i went to SM asap! to meet yui...hehe.. i was kinda in a hurry.. i ran along the over passes hahaha in school uniform! then i thought i was late but i juz made it on tym..err.. we played GF!... and i got better again.. yey nakatapos nanaman ako ng kanta...w/c sunflower girL!!eniwei...the day was fun spending 2 hrs with my love... hehehe we even saw rocky there! he's good! hahaha adek xia! well.. hmm... yui gave me his photo hehe there's this gundam seed frame w/c is really cute.. haha..oh well.. on our way home we went to northmall first to buy an internet card hehe.. aun lang! then we went home na..

oh well./... i juz hopw things will turn out ok next meeting..:)

aun... nag drop bye lng ako....

oh yeah...but you know... i feel a bit sad... because... i only spend 2 hrs with yui... T_T... im gonna miss him again... /sigh...well eniwei...

this part is for master sonar...

Well.. i want to thank him for all his help.. he is such a good friend... he heared me cry, laugh and freak out hahaa... he's a nice person!, he knows lotsa stuff about me.. and im so glad that he accepts chie even though she isn't really that u know... haha...eniwei... i did it master im the first person to greet yah on yer 15th birthday... enjoy your 15th yr k?.. mamimiss mo yan!~ oh well.. im runnin out of words here... more birthdays to come and may god bless you always ^^, goodluck and happy birthday again......papainom kaba? hehe joke!

~chie

Thesis bumbumbum

2006-01-11T08:13:00.000-08:00

January 10 2oo6

Thesis bumbumbum

OK... i didn't go to school todaY because i have to work agan on my darn thesis... go0d thing master sonar called so i didn;t feel sleepy.. well eniwei..i juz spend my day infron of the PC... typing..writing...thinking...

err... i dunno im so addicted to everythin i do!

My Bag

2006-01-09T01:49:00.000-08:00

January 9 2oo6

My bAg

( suppose to be the title is Happy birthday mazel )

ok... my day was argh,,,im so freakin pissed!... why?! fuck! i just lost my kawaii pink bag! it has my Economics b0ok! darn... and my notebooks craP!!! i just finished working on my 3rd quarter lectures now... i dunno what to pass shit!!!!! if i fail my subjects im gonna curse that freakin asshole!.. im sorry for my words its just that i am sooo gawdamn pissed!

ok... happy birthday mazel.. i woke up around 6:3o ok i was late for scho0L ><... i tooK a nice cOLd shower, brush my teeth, dresS up and off to school around 7 hahaha im 1 hr late! ok...

NICE hair! is their greetin for today... well school was fun.. i enjoy the lectures i swore to do my homeworks and study at home... i got my proof of candidacy for graduation and... lets juz say everything planned was a success...

dismissal,,, since its mazel's 17th birthday... she wants us to celebrate it with her at KFC "blowout ba!" well.. ok... i missed my 1st yr barkada "Violatorz" well... its like a reunion i shared them my experiences they shared theirs well... after our chika... napamura ako! shet! yung bag ko it was stolen by the guy sitting right behind me... he left before i noticed,,, shiT!!! i was thankful though that my mp3 and the necklace yui gave me was in my pocket well im wearing the necklace... errr... but my books and the proof of candidacy~!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!

oh well... that's life... im too dumb to notice that he got my bag..

pft...

grrr

CoMpuTer

2006-01-08T04:38:00.000-08:00

January 8 2oo6

computer

( duh?! )

Spendin all day infornt of my PC is what i did today,,, errr.. organizin my mp3's my pix... then listenin to jrock... whatever,,, im so bored!... i wanna go out,.. and hang out with friends.. but,,,oh well... i dunno wat to say... err... i ran out of words? or is it because,,, i didn;t do anything exciting... well... i cant post here what i exactly did today coz that means i have to post here that i pooped 3 times nayhaah ( oh... i just did ) oh well...errr...im hungry... i wanna eat... but u know,,, i dont wanna get fat!... my waistline became 26 1/2 yesterday!!! gawdammit...ok,.. DIET!!!!

Yuri?!

2006-01-07T08:45:00.000-08:00

January o7 2006

Yuri?!

( GC EB at MegamaLL )

ok.. i woke up late since i slept late haha sumtime around.. 8 i guess.. well while doing the laundry im having ng BF ( breakfast ) and tranferring some Mp3's to the PLayer.. err.. fixin my stuFf my survey forms, the Cd's that i should bring and err... ok.. i have to be at Quantum at 10:30 aM but... at that time im still at home i called izumi to ask her if she could go to quantum with me.. coz im kinda nervous... u know...

hehe

eniweiz... at the bus hahaha im shiverin... egh...nervous... on my way INSIDE SM i took the longest and "slowest" way to quantum im textin tintin but no replies!???? err..well.. thank go0dness my beloved faja saiko was out der with tin tin whew! wat a relief... the yui came.. he gave me a pic of us.. and a cd.. hehe... and as usual played GF! hehe.. i managed to finish arigatone on my 1st try again but on my secong -____- whatever... eniweiz..err..

ok we left SM around 1 and head straight to SM mega and as usual PROM D mode in MRT!!! "ang laki ng billboard" err hahahaha ok...at mega.. jade, ate noey, and the others were there.. hehehe me and jade?? YURI MODE!!!!!!! omg as in total yuri!! kissin, huggin, lickin nyahahah f*ck!,,, err oh well.. jade is such a nice gurl almost same age as my younger sis,, hehe she speaks like a 16 yr old gal.. very liberated! in fact i had learned lots of new things from her nyahaha...

oh well... also.. master was there!! nyahaha my huggables!! i kept on spanking him and pinching his kawaii cheex hehehe.. *sorry master! hehehe.. but unfortunately/./. we have to go back to north ASAP well...

eniwei.. im so thankful to my yui, my tita and also my beloved faja... they're always there... cheerin me up.. ^^<>

hm... also... i love strawberry ice mnster!!!!!!!!!! yey!!

arigatone!!!!

last post for jan6

2006-01-06T07:51:00.000-08:00

January 6 2oo6

Last post for this day

( last part of thesis bumbum )

well.. when I got home.. keila and chloe ( my err cousins? ) were there watching the movie “white chicks” with my sister, while eating corndogs hahaha… well eniwei.. after watchin.. I called dyann but she’s not home, then I saw the darn guy’z phone number in my caller ID so I decided to make a call…

its busy… darn…. So its not a payphone… … I told ate tere what happened so she tried callin up the 871 guy… it rang so I thought that its impossible that its… since the phone rang then/…. Someone picked up the phone waaaaaa… and it’s a girl…. Omg

I logged out and yui called… I told him what happened.. errr eniwei.. were goin to meet tomorrow at SM north XD…

Im kinda nervous though….she is goin to be there for sure,… oh my…im scared… eniweiz… er… yui is really high lately he keeps on teasing me >< /./… argh,,, hehe oh well… err… he told me something that made me feel really sad… :-<… /sigh… but I guess.. I juz have to accept it when the time comes since its his dream… and also… remember my promise??

I had descended from heaven to earth and swore to always stay beside my demon… my beloved husband… I will always be with him and I will love him./.. eternally/// _~ ~St. Chie

Hehehe oh well.. after that master sonar called with master roy hehhe im goin to give them 2 cd’s tomorrow hehehehehe Im so addicted to Arigatone!!

i hate it

2006-01-05T23:37:00.000-08:00

January 6 2oo6

I hate it

( a continuation of thesis bumbum )

Well im not home now.. im in a computer shop hehe.. i had received this mail from one of my close friends i dunnoh why but... i.. i dunno.. i got a bit pissed.. i mean i did what theyw ant me to do but... pati ba naman yung tawag ko sa kareshi ko kailangan ibahin pa?! i mean its not that im argh... but u know... i did my part i did my best to balance my time and yeah! i did it.. i guess.. i did everything they want me to do for the reason that i dont want them to hate me... but... my god!!!

WHAT IS SO WRONG ABOUT CALLING MY KARESHI MY HUSBAND OR WHAT?!!!! whew... i dunno.. i hate myself... i cant stand on my own... i knew that my friends are only worrying about me but... i dunno... i bet if they read this post... i knew it... its over between us... wala ng keme keme i dont know what to do... i really dont know... argh,... darn myself i hate it... dou kana?!!!!!

Thesis bumbum

2006-01-05T21:07:00.000-08:00

January 6 2oo6

Thesis BumBum

oh crap... i didn't go to school today.. reason? i have to work on my darn thesis.. well thanks to my tita ( hi tata ).. for helping me come up with a title hehe.. ( darn grammar ).. err... eniwei.. i would also like to thank ate noey a.k.a Danteislove of Gamer clan for helping me make some questions for my survey... thanks a lot ate...

also...

my darling husband yui for cheering me up also dyann my beloved friend for the support and mom... for helping me financially ( xerox )

err... oh well

christian helped me too hehe tnx CRUSH hehe... he told me that his brains nid some rest coz hez been to hell eerrr i mean accounting class...

LOLZ

oh guyz thank you very much!

Otanjoubi omedetou lyka-chan

2006-01-05T07:58:00.000-08:00

January 5 2oo6

Otanjoubi Omedetou Lyka-chan

OK… its my siz lyka’s birthday… she’s 12 y/o now… argh so im just 3 yrs older XD

Eniweiz… at school.. I made it I passed my trigo project and notebook… my physics notebook too… tomorrow.. im goin to absent coz I nid to work on my thesis…and my kaleidoscope and my other projects…

Err..

I finished my bloggie last night I like my new layout… its really kawaii…errr

Uhm err…

I swear to update my bloggie every single day of my life startin now hehehe :p

Err… school … still… its boring… I hate it… but I need it… I want to learn…
I want to graduate….

School!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ACP tomorrow/// argh… I hate it…

Sa umagat sa gabi sa bawat minutong lumilipas hinahanap hanap kita hinahanap hanap kita…..

Argh… LSS!!!!!!!!

Classes Resume

2006-01-05T07:50:00.000-08:00

January 4 2oo6

Classes Resume

Oh well… classes again… my hair… errr…

Eniwei… I hate the gossips.. argh.. coz the topic is about me and my kareshi ( why don’t they juz mind their own fuckin businesses ) oh well that’s life… all I know is that im happy now,.,,

Err… my exam results are all oO?! Omg…I don’t even know how to tell mom coz for xur she’ll be upset! Really…

Eniwei… again… I noticed that jaymie and jean are actin a bit weird… I mean usually they make fun of me u know… tease me and hmm…

Oh well… i understand how they feel but what can I do…

I spend 2 units sleepin since there’s no teacher hehee it was fun!

Rommel took a pic of me while sleepin at the teachers desk!

Errr… my exams T________________________T

Arigatone

2006-01-05T07:41:00.000-08:00

January 3 2oo6

Arigatone

LOLZ… I woke up around 7 and as usual my morning rituals.. brush hair, take a sponge bath, eat, toobrush…while… doin the laundry… -____-… I went to the parlor around 10 am to get my hair dyed again hehe… then SM to meet my kareshi ^^, well he got there around 12:30? 10 mins after I arrived.. hehe.. well…as usual Play Gf first then Game!.. ok.. Yui said I improved hehehe XD… errr… eniwei.. after playing, we went to yui’s house he introduced me to his mom XD

Err.. then we went to a computer shop near his place… we found aren and waloz playin there awww.. the addicts hehehe.. eniwei… me, yui and fader shawne hehe.. went to yui’s new place.. we cooked BBQ,, hehe yummie and ;)) I fixed their hairz heheh piggie tails!! Hehe we all looked so kawaii… we went to yui’s old house errr not exactly his old house but the computer shop near his old apartment XD… hihihi… then chitchat for a while… XD coke sakto and tommy XD,,, then once again back to yui’s new apartment… hihihi…pixie pixie… XD I love the bathroom scene with fader and tito XD…

Oh well… hehehe… ok… this day I told yui some unknown facts about me… you know… some darksides… and I also found sumtin about him… XD hehe…

Ok… after the QC visit… yui and I went to SM north again around errr 7:30 pm and waaaaaaaaaaaaa GF!!!! Up to 9 pm… Arigatone!!! Hihihihi ;))

Shame on me

2006-01-05T07:19:00.000-08:00

January 2 2oo6

Shame on me

Well… this is quite a boring day… computer… layout makin…oh well… Dyann asked to to go with her at “Floresco chapels” and visit Jaidee.. ( her father passed away last December 31 )… well.. after the visit we went to JC computer hauz… to take a look at the results of our entrance exams… well… I failed my ET in DLSU *sigh… oh well… ouch…I feel so bad so I checked my YM wow… everyone is online ( err not really )… but many peepz are OL… Luna is there.. ^^, she is so cute! I really like her… but she never liked me… she even despised me… but its ok… the more she hates me… the more I like her hahaha… I mean I dunno why… im so weird instead of hating her too… u know it’s the opposite hahaha… I have no idea.. well.. maybe because she’s juz too cool and I really idolized her ^^, anyway,, she called me a savage bitch for the 4th time hehehe kawaii ne?XD Luna-sama ur d best!~..

Well I told mom what happened ( about me failin ) she was like Oo?!!!

Don’t wanna think about it hehehe… ok… MAPUA is next! Waaaaa but I wish I’ll pass my USTET… I wanna go there too ^^ XD

Startin up

2006-01-05T07:00:00.000-08:00

January 1 2oo6

Startin up

Dou kana… its already 2oo6… well… errr…. honestly I don’t even care! I mean.. ok its new year.. big deal…. Will it change the jeepney fare?, will it change My gawdamn grades in math and trigo? Will it change the way we think about accounting subject will it change rayniel’s ass and make him shut up even for juz 1 day?!! No! hell no!... so why would I give a damn on this year? Oh well… the reason why im soo pissed off right now is because er… I lost my economics notebook.. -____- crap! I spend 3 days writing my crappy lectures and now I lost the darn notebook!!! Fuck!, er… oh well ( again )…

Anyway.. I guess Happy new year to all of you ( even though no one reads my posts except mwah. )… I woke up around 8 am… argh,,, my head is spinnin… @_@... ahhhhh well I guess its because I was really really drunk last night nyahaha… my couz said dat I drank 7 bottles of SMBL and I had 7-8 shots of tequila XD oh god,,, well its ok I guess since I only drink on christmas and new’year’s and sumtimes when there is a family celebration or whatever but drinkin with friends well… er… twice? Hehe and its juz wine so I guess its juz ok..

I took a nice warm shower so early… dress up like Barbie doll?! ( that’s what my relatives say ewwww ), I went to the main house around 9 and helped dad prepare… well… im goin to be the emcee for our family reunion this year hehe…ok… eniwei… its not that boring.. the food is great ( I ate so much! >< )…. Mom said I did great… hehe thanks er… also… hmm… I dunnoh… as soon as I got home… I sat infront of my PC connect… open YM … hurhur… and of course! FORUMS!!!! Ohh… I don’t wanna go to school yet… errr… i want to sleep! Sleep! Sleep! Hehe Oh how I miss my kareshi…. *shameless greetz :-h

Ok… I wanna share something… my new years resolution…

Sleep early… I know it sounds impossible but… why not try?

Limit my online hours… my kareshi might be callin hahaha also my new phone buddies… ( Master ( hi !! ), Hiro ( errr new phone buddies dude not OLD hehee ), ate izumi ( hi atee *mwah ), khatie ( as always ), jowdie ( judy! ), mimi ( sexy ) and etc… )

Study harder ( few months to go and im on the next step in my journey through life nyaklz )

Believe…Trust… ( I have my kareshi with me always… I love him…yui! )

Be nicer ( stop being such a bully at school! Its not nice )

Go home early! Hehehe school days curfew is 10 vacation curfew is 11 hahaha

Practice playin the piano ( argh I know im sick of it but I need to finish my last 2 piece )

Spend money wisely ( for cosplaying )

There… its all sacrifices… hehehe ( “as if kaya eh no? )….

Welcome..

2006-01-04T07:38:00.000-08:00

Dou kana...

They say when you love someone, show them your feelings,
but would you still show it if u know that the worse will happen?
what if after showing that, you loved one will stay away from you,
for the reason that he is disappointed and shocked about it..
Life is too unpredictable..much to love...Love is so cruel...as it may seem...
How can you just take away your feelings for that certain person,
if he at first made you feel special?
If he had been honest and truthful to you,
if he had told you things that you alone knows...
How can you resist... How can you falter...
It's like an effervescence to my heart,
that everytime i see him, something glows...
without knowing where did it came from...Its unconditional, so ironic....
Hearts are confused, which to choose..
the one you love or the one who loves you..
It's stereotypical I think, why can't we have the one who is destined for us now..
isn't it the right time? or do time lets us to play with someone's heart?
make them loved and yet make them fool?
how can these things be so naive? It's unexplainable...
It's a radical topic of love...in the bottom of questions about love...
Many are in love..but few are true and destined.
How we wish to be one of the few....
Now i can say that im lucky that i've already found my special sumone... my soulmate his name is Kim ... i Love him and i know.. that he loves me too...

Love you kim..^^,